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Church...

I've been visiting churches quite often these days...
and my insight of it is that its quite.... interesting....


First I have to stress that I am NOT being a racist,
nor do I intend to offended the christians or believers in any way.


I grew up without having a religion...
not that I hate it or disregard it,
I'm not an atheist...


I just couldn't see nor understand how "someone" could be all mighty and controls everything...
nor do I believe that this so-called "God" could determine my life,
as I myself am the one making decisions,
working hard and making my dreams come true....


I also do find this so-called "God" and also the people believing in Him hypocritical... 
no offense....


If he were to make life great for everyone,
why is it that there's so many misfortunes?
And why does he ask for believers and followers,  
if He really were to salvage everyone regardless of who they are?


IF.... if.... I were to point out a "God",
it would be my parents,
for they gave life to me and provided for me,
sacrificing for me....
not the one high above,
not the one I am not able to see or touch,
and definitely not the one who just watches when I suffer....


anyway.... I went to church-es.........
and ppl there are a little too friendly, a little too enthusiastic,
and there is far too much touching!!
stop touching me!!
I hate it when strangers, ppl I don't trust, like or consider as close touch me....
I've been holding back urges to bitch-smack them....

the other thing is well.... over-reacting?? over faithful??
not so sure if I should put it that way......
I just don't understand the need to pray that frequent,
and they are praying VERY frequently.....
at the beginning of the meeting, prayer...well obviously...
when they sing songs, when the pastor is preaching blah blah blah....
they pray all the time!!!

and I swear that this one woman was on her knees when she's praying....
intimidating...... but can't complain anyways.......
I'll just...stay away from her....... far...far...away.........

btw this pastor in this particular church,
he knew where I came from,
and well... he started using our slang in every single sentence when he spoke to me,
and he JUST WON"T STOP..... and he just keeps on smiling with that ugly face of his....

no offense man, but you are FUCKING ANNOYING....

don't use my country's slang when you don't even understand how to use it!!
and you sound so bad at it too.....
and my country's slang is alr quite bad to begin with....

Imagine me asking him to shut up....
I don't think the ppl will like it......

so anyway.....
this refreshes my mind, thoroughly, to why I'm not a religious person, and also why I'll never be one....

连生气的资格都没有么？

说真，
我到底算什么，
在你们心中？

心理一直在想

"只不过是闹脾气不用管她..."
"反正过一阵子就没事了..."
"反正就我们几个朋友她不会怎样的..."

吧....

生气了你们可以当作没一回事,
就当没发生过，
一直都是这么敷衍我吧....

就算说了出来，
你们可以好像把身上的灰尘拍掉似的，
又或者像赶掉害虫一样挥挥手赶走就算了....

我对你们来说是什么?

可有可无的候补朋友?
无聊或心血来潮是可以寻找的傻瓜?

最多就是那种要来塞时间, 没人陪时随时可以找的白痴?

偶尔当作是关心一下来敷衍就好了的包袱?
还是无论对我做什么我都不会离开你们的笨蛋?

我承认我朋友少，
偶尔都会闹别扭，
可能对你们来说很烦，
可是如果真的是这样直接说好了，
请不要勉强自己和我一起，
因为这种所谓的朋友我不需要....

连简单的尊重和责任感都没有的人，
我没有留在你们生变的义务，
更没有作践自己的这号另类的兴趣。。。

我忍，
是因为我当你们是朋友，
我尊敬你们，
也知道大家有自己的生活，
可是如果就因为我忍而得寸进尺，
那就对不起，
是你们没当我朋友的资格....

怎么办...

都过了这么久了，
还以为不会再想起他了，
可是却梦见他，
在女中canteen，
穿着校服,
中间隔着一个人吧...


他啊....一直盯着人家，
以为是错觉，
又或许是要假装不懂吧....


可是旁边的人 (竟然是TYT...),
离开是却说了出来，
"他从刚才就一直看着你..."


没办法逃避啊，
转过头就看着他看着偶，


结果说出的竟然是


"因为很少看见你戴手链"


是偶和美龄在KL时一起买的手链啊...
时间完全不搭......


看来这几天日夜颠倒真的不好啊....
睡前要记得吃冰淇淋...

I need new friends.....

放假了放假了!


好一段时间，
可怜滴偶，
饱受到所谓的：


mental, physical and emotional 的虐待与折磨...


现在终于重获自由咯~!!


可是可是呵...
原本啊原本...


以为可以大玩特玩，
和朋友们到处跑，


可是!!
可是呵!!
他们一大班竟然!!
竟然甘愿躲在家里玩自闭!!


没出息!!
真是!!
假期啊假期!!
天气开始暖了,
你们这样......我没眼看了啦!!


我不管了!!
我要找新朋友!!
和我一样爱玩的朋友!!


哼~~~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!